I'm 29, and I have really never been in a fight in my entire life. Let me recall a quote from my fictional hero, Tyler Durden, from Fight Club. "What do you really know about yourself if you have never been in a fight?" I am there...
Let me put it into perspective and turn back the hands of time. I am 26, my wife and I are at our whits end with each other. We go to marriage counseling and I find that my issue is that I am becoming an introvert and she is getting the brunt of my anguish. NEVER anything physical, but I can be a real asshole when it comes to my mouth. So the doctor prescribes me a life outside of my house. I am told to find something that I am passionate about or have always wanted to try. Try to interact and make friends when you feel comfortable enough in the new settings. I tell my wife later that night that I really want to try Jiu Jitsu, she of course says go for it. I do a little research, and on a Tuesday night in September I sounder into a little old-school dojo, the sign says Sho-Rei-Shobu-Kan, I didn't even know how to pronounce it. I probably didn't know how to pronounce it for at least a month.
I instantly fell in love with the Jiu Jitsu program. I began my training jumping right in with both feet. After 3 years and 2 belt promotions I am happy to say I have stayed dedicated to the training. Now back to present day...
When I began training I had told myself that I wanted to try an MMA amateur fight before I was 30. My birthday is in October, so, as of this post I have 3 months to get it done. I have reached out to a local promoter to book a fight in August in my hometown of Lincoln, NE. Things do look promising for this to happen on his end, but I am starting to hit some roadblocks.
The Physical: I have terrible allergies, and with two little kids around the house, allergens are coming in from all over the place. The allergies have gotten so bad that I went to the doctor and found out that not only do I have a Sinus infection, I also have an ear infection. If you have never had an ear infection, you are blessed. I have had one before and it literally crippled my for a week. The pain in horrible and the feeling of your head sitting about a foot away from your body doesn't go away for a few days once the medicine does its magic. I was just lucky enough to get it diagnosed early. This "crap," however, has rendered my off limits for training. I physically can not train feeling like this. So, I feel that I am getting flabby and weak, even though I look the same in the mirror. The plus side is that my arms, ankles, and neck don't constantly ache like they usually do during the week.
The Mental: My kids seem like they too are always sick or struggling with their allergies. I suddenly have this enormous feel that we have some kind of debilitating mold growing in our house that is causing our illnesses. So I have to pony up the money to bring in a professional mold tester to give it to me straight. Here is the doozie---My grandmother is losing her fight with diabetes. She could go at any moment, she was hospitalized this week. I am not going to go into details, but this time could be the last time she visits a hospital, that is how serious it is. She is 87, so she has lived a full and happy life. The thing that is really hanging me up though is the fact that I have become so busy with my life that I have forgotten to set aside time for her. She literally lives a mile and a half a way from my front door, there is no excuse for me to not see her or phone her at least once a week. We have used a very legitimate excuse though, our illnesses. I will not allow myself to get her sick and die because I couldn't just call her from home and explain that I am sick. Her immune system is shot and I really think that any minor cold could end her.
So with so many factors against me, I am at a crossroads. Do I ditch the fight and not be selfish about getting a fight before 30? Or, to I re-evaluate my priorities, get them straightened out and do this because at 29 I realize that life can be short, seize the moment, do these thing before it is too late. I think when a person endures the worst and sees the task at hand to the end, that person reaps all the benefits of life.
The fight goes on...